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5 More Random Facts You Never Need to Know About Me! # 36 – 40

 

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Monday Chat – Depression Lingers

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I’ve been at one of my lowest points for a week now. What a long, tough week it has been!  I feel like I’m losing my mind, my business, my online family, all of that.  And it’s all because of who I am, the real me. I don’t think the real me is very likable.

I’m struggling to get through this and will just keep my head above water.  I have a silly unboxing and review to do, and I’m so NOT in the mood to do that, but I would like to try maybe tonight or tomorrow.

Depression.  Please go away.

Darlene
XOXO

 

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Youtube Earnings Update for August (First Half)

 

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Coffee Talk – I Survived My Comment Experiment! (plus I read a viewer’s snarky comment!)

 

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Sunday Chat – My Turning Comments Off Youtube Experiment

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It’s Sunday!

I know I’m late with this chat update, but I’m trying very hard to not stress over stuff, so my timing might be off for a bit, or forever. lol

I uploaded a video last night! I went a whole 4 days without being on camera.  That’s after creating 370 videos for 5 months straight without missing a day.  Someone please remind me that in 5 more months, I can take a few days off again!

Last night’s video is very different for me. I talk more about my odd duck ways and explained why I’m temporarily turning comments off my new videos. It’s a scary experiment, but I’m doing it just the same.  I also have a follow up video that will be uploaded soon, so please check for that one later.

I will also try to record my youtube earnings update later tonight.  I have been getting lots of questions asking me if I’ll still be doing that, and so far the answer is yes. Stay tuned!

Have a great Sunday!

Darlene
XOXO

 

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I’m Back – Sorta Kinda

 

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Saturday Chat – Will Try to Record Something Today

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Breaking News!!!!  I will try to record something today.   If I don’t start now, I never will. I will probably just be talking about a few changes I’m making.  I’m not really up to this at all, but I really feel like I need to push through it.

I just got a call that a PT is coming over for my mother today, so I’ll try to record after that.  No clue how long she’ll be here.

Stay tuned!

Darlene
XOXO

 

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Doodle Art by Darlene #28

 

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MEMPHIS AREA – This is where Derrick is playing this weekend 8/19 & 8/20

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If you happen to be in the area and you stop by one of these gigs, you MUST say hello to Derrick and snap a selfie with Derrick to send to me!  He wants to meet you!!! (like Derrick on facebook)


Friday Night 8/19 – Mudflap King (like on facebook)
Country Hoedown at TJ Mulligans on Trinity Road in Cordova, TN
Mudflap King starts at 9:30pm

Derrick will be filling in for the bass player with Mudflap King this weekend.  Derrick used to be in this band so he’s excited to be rejoining his old friends for the night!


Saturday Night 8/20 – Radiometer (like on facebook)
Live at Rock House – 5709 Raleigh Lagrange, Memphis, TN
9:00pm to 1:00am

This is the new band Derrick is in!  –  Radiometer [rey-dee-om-i-ter] is a country rockin’ party band from Memphis, TN. The members of the band are Ashton Sprouse and Kayla Cobble sharing lead vocals, Jeff Cobble on lead guitar, Derrick Michaud on bass guitar, and Jeff Ward on the drums. Radiometer plays a wide range of country and rock music. They perform a variety of songs from such artists as Little Big Town, The Band Perry, Gretchen Wilson, Miranda Lambert, Adele, Led Zeppelin, Heart, Joan Jett, Aerosmith, Journey, Bonnie Raitt, Melissa Etheridge, and the list goes on.

 

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Friday Chat – Thinking About Recording Videos Again

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I have been struggling so much with whether or not I’ll every record videos again. First, let me explain that when I’m depressed like this, I feel with my whole being that I’ll never come out of it.  But past experiences prove that I will come out of it in time, maybe in a few days, maybe a few weeks. I’ve even let myself feel like this for many months before seeking help. It’s hard to even want help when I’m at the bottom of a pit. But my intelligent side knows there is help for me if and when I want it.

Today I feel like I’m heading toward recording again.  However, not sure what I’ll be like!  lol  One thing I’m thinking of is turning off comments for future videos, at least for a while.  This is not because of the few hurtful or hateful comments I get.  It’s because of the nice ones.  Yes, nice ones are very hard for me to deal with.  I think when I return to youtube, I’ll do my first video trying to explain that.  All I know is I have the comments turned off on this video and also on this one, and my anxiety level has gone down. That’s a good thing!

So, I’m still not sure how things are going to play out, but at least I am trying to come up with a plan to make my return easier on me.  I feel like I’d be starting from scratch.  It’s like I don’t even know how I ever got on camera before!

I also want to reply to the person who told me I bit off more than I could chew.  The last time I took a day off from youtube was March 21st. That’s 5 months of videos where I never missed a day.  And that was multiple videos a day, 370 total, so an average of about 3 per day.  That’s through having my granddaughter here for 5½ weeks then my mother in the hospital and rehab for 3 weeks. I was good with that!  I think I chewed up everything I bit off. If I felt like it was too much, I would not have done it. I have no clue what my pace will be when I return, but it will be a pace I’m comfortable with. If I take big bites, I’ll chew them.

A special shoutout to CourtneyWithLove!!! Today is her birthday!!!  So incredibly happy to have Courtney as my friend!!!  Much love to you girlfriend!!!

Darlene
XOXO

 

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