Happy Saturday!
I started my day off by crying for a very long time. Just exhausted, I guess. And sad that I can’t be with Skylar on a regular basis. Sad that I never left the grips of my mother. Sad that people drive me crazy to the point of wanting to get offline forever and truly live in a cave.
Just sad today. Please, don’t tell me to cheer up. That’s not what I’m after (refer to the last sentence above, lol). It’s normal and perfectly fine to be sad. Just sharing how I feel. Not looking for words of encouragement. Hate words of encouragement. Just seems so meaningless to tell someone to feel better or that tomorrow will be better or all that shit. I not only find those “uplifting” words meaningless but also disrespectful, insulting even. It totally dismisses the importance of the sadness and tears. I have said it before and will say it again… sadness gets a bad wrap.
Yesterday was rough for many reasons, none of which had to do with Skylar’s visit. Other stuff. It built up and then this morning I broke down. When I stop crying and I can get my eyes to looking somewhat normal, I will record a video about my paper beads and get those up for auction on eBay.
Speaking of eBay, I listed 16 Long Quarters of 100% Cotton on eBay last night and those are now sold out. They did not sell out as quickly this time, maybe 4 or 5 hours instead of the usual 2 or 3 hours, so I at least feel good that more had a chance to see the listing before it sold out. I think raising the amount of lots from 8 to 10 helped.
I also uploaded Skylar and Nora’s Q&A video that they recorded Wednesday night (why on earth did I send them to a green room? So green! lol). It’s fun for me to edit videos when I have no clue what they did. I only knew it would be a Q&A. They came up with the questions. It’s so cute to watch them grow up yet they are still little girls. Like the other day they got my speakers for one of their phones and they blasted AC/DC in the other room while they sat on the floor and played with stuffed animals. lol
Don’t know if I mentioned this but I went into the cellar and brought my toaster oven up. My goodness, why did I ever put that away? I need that! Skylar and I have been experimenting with baking little cakes and cookies using store bought mixes but only using a little at a time, like microwave mug cakes recipe portions, but we are baking in mini pans instead. I will totally be doing this for my mother because I can make just one or two servings and there is nothing left over to freeze! I can also bake small portions of lasagna or meatloaf or whatever and not have to heat the whole house with the big oven. I want to turn this into a new series! Let’s bring back the toaster oven!!!
Oh, yesterday we went out with Sandy Pro and we hit Marden’s so Skylar could pick out some fabric for t-shirt dresses that she wants me to make. Then we went to the Another Chance Thrift Store to donate a few things and we came home with a few new goodies including some fabric (we were so excited to see that someone donated fabric) and a few games. We hit Subway for Skylar’s lunch then the bank then home for the rest of the day. We were busy!
Today I will be busy again. I need to get the paper beads on ebay, hit Hannaford, return stuff to the library, make a t-shirt dress, possible have Skylar dye my hair, more “easy bake” recipes in the toaster oven, just so much to do! OMG, and I must finish cutting fabric and packaging those for Monday’s mail pick up! And the time is flying by too fast. Makes me sad. That’s okay.
Have an awesome Saturday! Darlene xoxo
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