Darlene Michaud

TGIF!

UPDATE:  I just got back from Roger’s.  You can expect a quick car vlog soon!

I wake up every morning feeling as though I’ve suffered the death of a loved one. That is not an exaggeration.  You know that feeling where for a split second you are okay, then it sinks in that you’ve suffered a loss and you are completely crushed?  That’s how I feel.  Every morning.  Only for me, that feeling is not a loss that actually happened but from the reality that loss is going to happen.  I will experience it and so will everyone else.  I suffer over stuff that has not happened yet.  It’s a terrible way to wake up. Been waking up like that for as long as I can remember.

Now I’m upright and still nauseous from impending doom (lol… sounds ridiculous, but that’s how I start my days) and I need to figure out what I will do today.  For sure I need to get some fabric listed on ebay later for Fabric Friday. And I think I’ll be uploading two separate listings this time!  Not positive, but might give it a go.

I also might knock out one more way to do half square triangles, then I want to start making funky variations of that block.  I started a new Half Square Triangles Quilt Block Series yesterday.  I will also be doing other blocks too.  I hope to have lots of series going for various blocks and just add to those series as I can. And I will still be embellishing my old quilt block party blocks.  I’m thinking the quilt block videos will be quick so on days that I publish those, I will try to have another video too.  I love the blocks, but there are many who watch my channel that are here for my vlogs and not so much for my quilt blocks.

And I really am anxious to get back to upcycled fashions!  I want those to be quick and easy too.  Maybe I can plan something today and get that done over the weekend.  Oh, the woman who sent me the embroidered denim jacket contacted me and she wants Skylar to have it since she said she could tell Skylar loved it so much!  I can’t wait to tell Skylar!  Thank you so much, Diane, for Skylar’s new jacket! I will alter it for her if necessary.

I think it’s time to do something, don’t you?  I might see Sandy Pro today for some girl time.  Just not sure what we fell like doing.  Even just sitting together and chatting about youtube or ebay or crafts or sewing is fun for both of us. We share so many of the same interests!

I just remembered that I have to hit Roger’s today because my mother wants some haddock.  And we need milk.  Not sure about a car vlog.  All depends if I go alone or is Sandy comes for the mini outing.

Have a great Friday! Darlene xoxo

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Happy hump day everyone!

Today is the day I’ve been dreading.  Skylar goes home.  I won’t get to see her again until October, assuming I get to go in October.   I would book my trip now just so I could feel better, but it’s a bit too soon as Derrick does not know his playing schedule that far out.

The hardest part for me when she leaves is all the stuff that is left behind.  I have so much to put away, all the craft supplies, the games, the stuffed animals… and I always find something she forgot to bring home.  Those things do not comfort me.  They remind me that she’s far away and make me very sad.  It will take me at least a week to even realize she’s not here.  I will look for her every time I wake up.  Empty bed.  Do hate.

The good thing for my peanut gallery is that I’ll be throwing myself into my work.  I might over do the videos for a bit just to get me over the hump.  I want to keep my brain busy.  Work comforts me. It’s my safe place.  Not much can go wrong when you work hard.  It’s like a roller coaster ride that never ends.  Do love.

Yesterday I made two shirts for Skylar.  First, I made this Peasant Top.  And no, she did not wear this outfit out with those pants. LOL  However, if she wanted to, I would have totally told her it was a rocking outfit.  It just happens that she had those palazzo pants on and did not want to change for the photo shoot.

One thing Skylar has that I so wish I had as a child is the confidence to be herself.  She is not afraid to wear different things out in public and even to school.  I was petrified about bringing attention to myself and if someone mentioned what I was wearing, good or bad, I never wore it again.  The good comments bothered me because I figured they were somehow making fun of me.  I remember certain articles of clothing that I begged for and finally got only to wear them once and never again, like my maxi coat in 5th grade.  All the kids were wearing them but I got crushed by a comment and wore it only once.  Then I felt the guilt of wasting my father’s money on it for the rest of my life.  I honestly still lose sleep over that.  One of the million things I lose sleep over.

Okay, therapy session is over. lol  I just hope no one crushes Skylar’s confidence.  She is shy in many ways, but for now, she’s willing to wear different things.  I love that about her.  Yet I worry so much about the possible crushing blows that can come her way.  I always anticipate future reality.

The second shirt I made is the one out of the black sheer fabric.  I recorded it but I have not edited that yet.  I still need to take pics of the final look and hope to upload that tonight.

I also need to record my earnings update for the first two weeks of July. That might be tonight. If not, then I’m aiming for tomorrow.  Stay tuned!

Now I need to get ready to start this day.  I want to round up some stuff and have Derrick help me bring things back upstairs so I don’t have to do it all.  Also want to close up the sleep sofa so I don’t have to walk in the house to see Skylar’s bed open when I get back from the airport.

Have a great Wednesday!  Darlene xoxo

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Happy Tuesday!

This is the last full day that Skylar will be here.  They leave tomorrow.  I’m broken up about that.  It’s going to be a shocking difference to have the house so quiet again.  Thank goodness I have a new schedule planned so I can throw myself back into my work.  And it will be nice to not have the TV on so much during the day. That’s one sound I won’t miss.  lol

Yesterday, I started making the outfit Skylar asked for.  I completed the tank top and the shorts.  Today I must make the sheer top and I hope to record that.  Skylar now wants two different tops, one with bell sleeves and one with more of a peasant top look. I may tackle both.  If I had her near me all the time, I’m sure I’d learn so much about making clothing.  She would force me to! lol

Today makes 8 months that I’ve been eating only meat for my meals. And I sure do eat tons of it.  I’m still going strong and loving it.  I would like very much to do an update after Skylar leaves because I know many are curious to know if I’m even still eating this way.   I am!  I think if I do an update, I’ll turn comments off for that video.  I have no desire to read all the crap I get when I talk about eating only meat.  Too many opinions. Too much uneducated hate. No time for that shit.  But it might give me lots of content for a future “I Read My Comments” video.  So maybe I’ll leave comments on.  Don’t know yet.

Just a reminder for those of you looking for the Youtube Earnings Update video for the first two weeks of July, I will be recording that only after Skylar leaves, so hopefully Wednesday night or Thursday.  But yes, I will have it at some point.

Have a great Tuesday!  Darlene xoxo

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