Happy hump day everyone!
Today is the day I’ve been dreading. Skylar goes home. I won’t get to see her again until October, assuming I get to go in October. I would book my trip now just so I could feel better, but it’s a bit too soon as Derrick does not know his playing schedule that far out.
The hardest part for me when she leaves is all the stuff that is left behind. I have so much to put away, all the craft supplies, the games, the stuffed animals… and I always find something she forgot to bring home. Those things do not comfort me. They remind me that she’s far away and make me very sad. It will take me at least a week to even realize she’s not here. I will look for her every time I wake up. Empty bed. Do hate.
The good thing for my peanut gallery is that I’ll be throwing myself into my work. I might over do the videos for a bit just to get me over the hump. I want to keep my brain busy. Work comforts me. It’s my safe place. Not much can go wrong when you work hard. It’s like a roller coaster ride that never ends. Do love.
Yesterday I made two shirts for Skylar. First, I made this Peasant Top. And no, she did not wear this outfit out with those pants. LOL However, if she wanted to, I would have totally told her it was a rocking outfit. It just happens that she had those palazzo pants on and did not want to change for the photo shoot.
One thing Skylar has that I so wish I had as a child is the confidence to be herself. She is not afraid to wear different things out in public and even to school. I was petrified about bringing attention to myself and if someone mentioned what I was wearing, good or bad, I never wore it again. The good comments bothered me because I figured they were somehow making fun of me. I remember certain articles of clothing that I begged for and finally got only to wear them once and never again, like my maxi coat in 5th grade. All the kids were wearing them but I got crushed by a comment and wore it only once. Then I felt the guilt of wasting my father’s money on it for the rest of my life. I honestly still lose sleep over that. One of the million things I lose sleep over.
Okay, therapy session is over. lol I just hope no one crushes Skylar’s confidence. She is shy in many ways, but for now, she’s willing to wear different things. I love that about her. Yet I worry so much about the possible crushing blows that can come her way. I always anticipate future reality.
The second shirt I made is the one out of the black sheer fabric. I recorded it but I have not edited that yet. I still need to take pics of the final look and hope to upload that tonight.
I also need to record my earnings update for the first two weeks of July. That might be tonight. If not, then I’m aiming for tomorrow. Stay tuned!
Now I need to get ready to start this day. I want to round up some stuff and have Derrick help me bring things back upstairs so I don’t have to do it all. Also want to close up the sleep sofa so I don’t have to walk in the house to see Skylar’s bed open when I get back from the airport.
Have a great Wednesday! Darlene xoxo
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